We got another negative test.
I was sort of holding onto hope because my period was a day late. It can get very emotionally draining and disheartening to watch so many people all around us announcing their pregnancies or the birth of their babies when we can’t seem to make even One. I know the timing is not up to me, and I have to trust that when it happens, it happens, but GOODNESS it can be a hard pill to swallow some days.
We also knew that this cycle had a much less chance of success because of the motility of the sperm (which we got a full refund for on top of free sperm for this next cycle- they were super understanding and apologetic, especially after Sam told them our story). If you didn’t hear about that, our sperm was only showing a 20-30% motility rate so only about 3 million of the 10 million were alive, and those were not in the best shape.
We go in tomorrow for the start of round 3.
Some extra thoughts: At the beginning of all this, my initial feeling was that this was going to be a super easy experience since I’m super regular, I’m only 30, and haven’t had any medical issues at all. Go in, get inseminated, get pregnant, BOOM. It hasn’t worked out that way so far. If you’re planning on starting your family and you have a timeline set up, perhaps start a few months earlier just in case. I hate “wasting” all of this time. Initially, I said I wanted to be married for a year before trying to have a baby, but we just hit 1.5 years and those 6 months are weighing heavy on me. Because it’s been so difficult so far (really I keep counting this second one as a failure, but we DID have the sperm against us), we’ve been talking about IVF after this, but we may try one more time with IUI if this next time doesn’t work. I’m just trying to keep my head up and give the control to God and the Universe and whatever other entities control when we get pregnant. I’ve also been super cautious because I don’t want to change my habits, but I’m going to start running again (not far.. or super fast..) to get myself back into some sort of shape. Hopefully, that will help with everything.
–$787 credit for the sperm
Total baby-making cost to date: $4007.10